Night time

Well, tonight I cannot sleep for the life of me, so I am going to watch a movie,with the name of "The Corporation " I shall write a review after sleeping, waking up and coming back to blogging. I actually went on a retreat where (GASP!) I was not allowed any sorts of electronics, sorry any readers, that is if I have any secrect fans out there :) Well, I am very sorry for my absence. Life is a TAD hectic at this moment, but hopefully I can get to doing this more often, I rather enjoy blogging!
To start, the conferance was incredible. I met so many people, and had such an incredible fantastic wonderful amazing time. Something I will certainly never forget. I laughed, I cried, but all and all it was such a wonderfull experience. I cannot thank the people in charge enough for allowing people that sort of experience. It was hopefully one of those weekends I remember forever.
 One thing that did stand out was that , by the last night, gosh did I ever want to go home. I missed people, and my bed. familliar things. This scares me, moving out is basically this experience times... 100. It is frightening to think of.
 Another rather frightening thought I had was when I was with Alex, and I started to think about death. As an agnostic ( I think this is a word for a non hard core athiest, but if it is actually a religion sorry ) I do not beleive there is anything after death. This is a scary as hell idea. At some point in time, I just will not exsist. Now I know this is the cycle of life, and this is how life works, but god is it ever scary. I rather enjoy exsisting, I love my life, and well, gosh, thinking about it makes my mind crawl with sinister thoughts, so new topic.
 Love, how does one tell that they are in it? How can you be sure you feel real love towards a person. As many people say, you just know. But what is the definitive difference. It is something that has plaqued my mind for a few days, mayhaps weeks. How can one truly know they are in love, as oppossed to lust or extreme like. Love is certainly comitment, but anyone is comitted until something is over. If something ends, there is a lack of comitment right? So that does not quite work. A willingness to commit may be a check towards love, but not neicassarily.
I duunnno, But My movie is done downloading, so this shall be continued :)

Sorry

Sorry but tonight I am much too tired to blog, so all you get is this one lousy sentence <3 I love you blogger world!

OMG!

  I missed yesterday! This is terrible!!!! How could I? Though, in all fairness I passed out when I got home, it was a looonngg day. Me and some friends, (maybe 10 tops :P ) Went out and had a bonfire at my ex's home. It was pretty skilled. We made this huge fire, but it was raining, and cold, and maybe sort of a really fun failure.

  This brought me to the thought, wow, I miss summer. So very much. Summer is when I can freely go stay at random peoples houses, I can sleep in till 3 PM (not that I ever do) and I can just waste my life away on groups on people doing hang out like activities. It just feels so free, so lets - do- whatever- we -want great! Summer is the time where all good memories sort of just, happen.

  That is not to say winter is terrible. I just sort of miss the sun. I miss feeling warm without 15 layers, and I certainly miss not having to take my BF clothes every day just to survive. I think this is why Christmas is in winter, to even  out the balance between the two seasons. Or maybe it is just why people move to California.

Okay, well, I have a VERY important workshop in around, say 15 minutes, so I guess I need to be going. Good buy world, I'll come back later tonight to make up for it!

Busy

I enjoy being busy, but I never know where I should put more of my effort in. What is truly the most important to me? Where , and what deserves my time, my effort the most. This week has been about juggling. Is it my friends, my family, my BF my schooling, any of the three main clubs I attend (not regularly, but enough I would count them as important.) Life never quite decides to all fit together perfectly, I wish somedays it did.
Something new I have added into my schedule as well is my addiction to deviant art, and blogger. Maybe not an addiction per sae but a wanting of doing so daily. Do I enjoy posting up random thoughts? Yes, yes I do. Do I enjoy having a way to rant and rave about my issues, well but of course!, Mostly do I enjoy having a way to spread my important and TOTALLY RIGHT views upon society, but of course.
I guess now, all I need to do is buy a scheduler! : )

How boys catch girls - Observations

In my day, I have made some shocking discoveries. Now all of these are sure fire generalizations that may be offensive; do not read unprepared. Boys, get your pencils out, soon you will be catching girls in NO time!

To start, as a guy you will need warm clothes. Girls are cold blooded by nature and are attracted to warm members of the opposite ( or even same) sex. Wear a large jaChet for yourself, an under hoodie for any girls who may 'need one' and at least two toques. When she sees you are able to provide her with warmth she will instantly be attracted.

Girls love sacriffice, so boys, you need video games. The more, the better. Girls base long term affection on how much boys 1. Comprimise and 2. Sacrifice. Everytime you see her instead of playing mindcraft is plus ten in your favour.

Next , be rude occassionaly. Tease her, bug her, tell her to go make you a sammich. She will hit you, but girls get guilty concieses easily. Each hit will eventually be traded in for a kiss, a hug or other at a later time. Since your girl hitting you will not hurt, everytime she hits you just think ' kiss' . Soon you may even like it ( masochistic)

Those are my three observations about how boy can get dates, bye world! <3

On a day like today

Anything could happen. The sun may Turn purple or dark red in the sky. The birds may just learn they are unable to fly. Mountains may move, sea's dissapeare maybe the answer to life will appear (42) today is a day full of wonder and excitment. Full of perfection and ecstacy all rolled into one. Today has been a realization that every recent feeling is a stronger version from yesterdays. Today is hope and utter assurance in the future, our future. Today is pure, pure love <3

As I am sure you can tell today has been just, awesome. Ever so perfectly awesome. Seeing as how this is a daily recap of how I feel I decided today I feel like a silly off kilter poem. I rhyme, I twist I turn and as I go on less makes sense. I love today =)

Today, anyday can be THE day you will never forget. <3

Things to do; busy-ness, things I care about

Gosh my life is packed, I can not think of one day in the entire two weeks that is not fully packed. Just for my sake and to waste size space ( because apperently my posts are too short wink wink nudge nudge) explaining what I need to do =)

Tuesday - I have the incredible class that is jam making. Me and 5 other students (maybe 6) all meet up and make jam with two teachers; whose names shall not be exposed. It's an incredible class, but very exhausting and draining after a long day.

Wednesday I am off to lund! I am soooo stoked for that day, quite frankly no one has like any idea how amazing that is to me, since I have never been to Lund before :)

Thursday I am going... SHOPPING !! Life is going to be amazing that day =) Gunna wear some clothes, try on some more and yeah, tis exciting.

Friday - hmmm fat day with Laura, Megan and rowan . Stoked to be fat and make ketchup cake. I am not quite sure what is: but I want to try it.

Saturday - yayy for busyness, workshop meeting for the diversity initiative, than texada, and than the yrc music idol thing until 10

Sunday- hiking up suicide creek, which is actually an insanly pretty place, go figure.

Well that's all I want to rant about, but gosh is it packed. Now I guess I could quit all of that but it all happens to be things I care about. Urghh I hate caring some days. I love the diversity initiative , and the YRC and YAC and jam making but gosh it is just sooo much. My problem is that if it's an issue I care about I want to help out majorly.I guess even kindness is a burden

Dissapointmens ;

You know somehing I truly hate? Expectations and dissapointments. Now why do I say this? Because, for the very first time I convinced my BF to come hiking with me. He dislikes nature, so this is like majorly incredible. But no, no, it rains. Of course it rains. If  I had waited until today and asked him, it would have been great out, but because there was fore though, it is pouring rain.

What is the point of all this you say? I hate that whenever I have something major to look forward to, the weather occassionaly makes it imposible. Now, I guess by now I should learn that basing what I do outside should be waited unil the day of the activity. But basing rides around that are incredibly hard. Rides and people do not expect you to cancell everything over a little rain.

Hmm, I guess this brings me to another point, though this is rather unconnected. I dislike how as a young adult I have almost no way of transportation. Living in a small town makes busing places rather inconvenient and pointless. But it is a large enough place that walking is aswell. What does that leave me with? Well, rides, or illegal free riding to get anywhere. This is redundant. As a person with little mobilization ability for far distances I honestly sort of feel trapped. That is just, well , unjust~

On to a happier note though, today is my happy go-lucky day! So, blanket forts, hot chocolate, movies, pokemon, fatty foods and cuddling in the warmth of my house is in order. No hiking (which unless you are just reading this paragraph your aware of) and a great day to look forward to ~ Bye internet for now!!

Driving Lessons

I went driving today; It was great!
I can now drive in amazing perfect circles
Also, I suck at driving old cars, just saying. They are unable to be turned <3
I hates them, majorly.
Hmmm, but I do love the feel of a car wisking past me :)
The feel of control over enormous amounts of power and speed, I enjoy driving I think.
Today has been great, me and my sister went hiking up a random creek, and I took a ton of photos. I also decided I have a few wish list items I would love to get, before , or for my birthday.

1. Is a fancy new amazing HP printer that can print up to 8.5 - 11 for only 99 $ ( You have nooo idea how cheap that is in comparison to normally , its 200$ off) I would love it to display some of my work around my home, like absolutely love!

2. Photopaper just because that is always usefull to have, also, I have an idea for a gift that involves some larger prints, it may be needed.

3. A tripod, just because I can always find times where I am like... wow ! I WANT / NEEd one right now!

4. (last but not least) I would like to buy some decent photo edititng software; These free downloads are not quite the same as like premier photoshop elements :P

That is all I have learned from today. I am a compulsive buyer when it comes to somehting I have interest in, which changes almost monthly. Is that healthy? No. No it is not, but is it fun? Yeah, it is :)

Black Swan

SPOILER ALERT!
While I am here, I guess thinking to myself; wow that is not what I expected. To put it nicely, my mind feels gently disturbed, but in a great way. I loved it; the cinematography (not that I can spell or anything) was some of the best I have seen in a while. The acting was, well, in my opinion great. Maybe not amazingly spectacular, but about as close as I have seen in a very long while. I guess I'm using this post to go over everything I liked, and the maybe 2- 3 things I disliked. Hmm actually it may be less. Anyhow without farther a due -
  To start, this movie is not exactly peachy clean. Darren Aronofsky did an incredible job making you disturbed but the end of the film, but through out it used rather subtle foreshadowing (minus one part but that comes later) So I guess my first little paragraph type deal is on the style of the film. Now, before I start, I enjoy more, how do you say it, disturbing? films. I enjoy the ma-cob,  creepy styles of many films, and I love darker aspects to my movies. This movie has quite a few. Since I wrote spoiler alert (added may-haps 10 seconds ago) I guess I can now say what. To start, there is not a lot of death in this movie. It is a psychological thriller, not a happy go lucky ahh everyone dies sort of film. I dislike thrasher everyone dies flicks usually (the old ones occasionally make me happy though) But the way he makes you creped out is terribly affective. Honestly, I almost have a sick sort of pleasure-full feeling after watching it. Anyhow, the gist is he did a phenominal job, and I loved it.
  Some scenes I really enjoyed based on the style of filming. The dance scenes were done brilliantly. The way the camera did some of the angles was gorgeous. Also the use of symbolism for blood , and black and white was very apperent. I almost think they stole the symolism out of macbeth, for it reminded me heavily of that. They were obvious symbols, but nicely done I must say.The use of contrast was very very well done aswell, though it was sort of the basis of the film.
  Alrighty, the acting. It was, well natalie portman did wonderous. Her performance was amazing. The mother , not that I remember the actor, was creepy and scary and did great. The instructor was decent, he did not have a very large role but for what he had he did well. Whomever played beth caught my attention, she was interesting, I am not sure if it was good per sa but nice to watch? I guess.
  Alrighty, so that is what I enjoyed about black swan. The things I did not like were the guessable ending and some of the graphic scenes, but mostly it was inredble. Okay so I am done, byebye!

Thoughts ;

This is on my iPod touch so bear with me, I have had an incredibly epiphenous day today. To start pants are incredibly pointless and stupid. No one loves pants.
Second of all I am getting worse at sleep yet feeling more awake. This does not for the life of me make any god given sense. Why would it be that less sleep is making me more refreshed and alert? I wish I knew!
Third the skies have become increasngly well... Gorgeous. They have honestly became photographic almost every day, dawn and daybreak. I do not know what causes all those viBrant colours but I wish I knew.
Hmmm fourth I have noticed a ton more birds as of late. Literally everywhere I have seen seagulls, birds, ravens, pidgeons, every such flying creature on any such object I encounter. I do not enjoy this new side to Powell river; not one bit!
~ Now some of my thoughts on a future viewsing. As anyone whom knows me incredibly well knows, I love movies. Honestly ever so often I will probably rant about a movie until a post just basically becomes a review. I dunno I've just always liked movies. Tomorow I am going to watch the black swan.
My anticipation is erupting as it has been the last few days since my BF said he would take me. It looks incredible. The two main highlights I've heard are the film styles , and the plot. The acting is supposed to be decent, and I've heard nothing about the score though it is about ballet so; think classical. Everyone I know (almost) has been ranting, raving or mentioning this movie somehow, I'm almost thinking new Scott pilgrim; across the unniverse mayhaps? Indie like film ( though this one is not indie just off beat) (actually I doubt those two were either they were just filmed very indie like) pop cilulture status icon film.
Okay , I am tired! Good night !

A brand new day

Well today was the start of a new semester at my lovely school, since this is more just to get in the habit of writing, I'm just going to shortly explain my four classes than go back to attempting to figure out how this game maker works; it seems not very confusing, but really not all that easy.

C- Math, sort of an amazing class, my teacher I am rather sure is a genius. He has serious genius qualities, it is rather incredible. The people in it are rather great as well.  I rather enjoy it. Today we learned basic BASIC review, like rather stuff we had learned way back in grade 9. Ridiculously easy if I do say so myself. Thank god it is over for the day though- my only class with homework.

D- VIDEO game design, which I must say is rather incredible. I think if I actually apply myself this will be the most amazing est class ever ! :)

B- Was law, the teacher is sort of known as being a fun teacher; always. I think I will enjoy this block, honestly if not just for the distractions in it.

A- English, which is rather, well fun. Everything I had heard about the teacher has been a tad bit, well harsh, but so far she seems incredibly nice. I actually enjoy English, so I think this class will be fun!

Alrighty- that was my day, if I have some inspiration I shall post later! :)